WOW the power of kind words

First things first, I want to thank everyone who commented, emailed or called about my last post. Your kind words have really made me feel better, the anxiety is still there, but I'm working on it.

One thing that was really making me feel all crazy has been resolved, I am very happy to say, I was worried about something but all is good, and I'm glad. Now if I can only get the rest of my life to be less stressful and more calming... HAHA anyone know how to do that?

But there are a few fun things that have been going on in my life recently, that I thought I would share since my last post was kind of a downer. So let's try to get things UP BEAT again shall we?

Every Friday (or at least we try) a group of us meet up for Sushi at this great little restaurant, today is their 3 month anniversary they are new and we love them, we are their first "regulars", the food is great and it isn't expensive. the staff is wonderful it is Japanese cuisine so if you are not a sushi eater it is okay they have plenty of other delicious entrees. Well last Friday we got a group of 5 to go, it was Stephen, Chris, Elana, Alyssa and myself we always sit at the bar and we just talk and eat and drink it is a great time. Stephen and I laugh, sushi night is what keeps us going through the week, because man work can be stressful and it is good to look forward to something. Everyone and anyone is invited and we have been trying to get as many of our friends to come. After sushi Chris, Stephen & I went to a bar in Boston that is a regular hang out for Chris & Stephen, I got to finally meet some of the people that Stephen is always telling me about, and I have to say EVERYONE I met were super nice and super cool. I don't know what they thought of me because by the time we got there I was feeling well a bit drunk. Bruce at the sushi place sure can make a mean Cosmopolitan and considering I had two and hadn't really eaten anything until then it all went straight to my head. WOO HOO!!!

Don't worry though, I stopped drinking after we got to the bar, well after I had 2 lemon drop shots and a glass of wine, then it was water for the rest of the night. Got home around 2am and fell right to sleep, woke up too early on Saturday and relaxed a bit then met up with my friend Gosia and went for a long walk around Boston, stopping at the Hatch Shell by the Charles River for a Blues Festival, it was a gorgeous day for good music and to be outdoors, we are not going to have many more days like that one so I figured I need to get myself out there, I have been in such a funk lately that all I want to do is go home and be alone, and I think part of the reason I want to be left alone is because on Sunday my mom comes home from Finland and it will be a very long time before I'm alone again and I have been feeling the need to get my own place and I just can't but that is besides the point, I can't just hybernate just yet, cuz in a month or two that is what I will be doing, I hate the cold and I hate how early it gets dark, so I usually just go home, which is another reason I've been feeling so down, I know winter is coming and I definitely get seasonal depression, my therapist (I love saying that is that weird) told me that the lightbulbs they sell now that are like sunlight really do help, so I am going to go this weekend and buy a few for my room.

Anyway, so Saturday was a good day we left the Blues Festival and went through the park to see about maybe catching a movie unfortunately nothing was playing for about an hour, so we decided to walk towards the shopping district of Boston and I showed Gosia where I used to work, and told her this funny story of how when I worked at this law firm I used to meet up with well a guy "friend" and we would go back to my house at lunchtime for a quickie... it was a 15-20min train ride to my house and my friend would cover the phones for me, so I would call her and say, hey Kim I'm going to be like 10 minutes late coming back from lunch, and she knew why so it was all good. Ah to be 21-22 again, good times good times, I also told her about this place that has been in Boston since the 1936 called The Original Tremont Tearoom it a place where you can get psychic readings. I went there years ago and had a reading with Alex who was so dead on it was freaky. I'll tell you all about it another time (and when we go again). So I think we are going to try to go this weekend, how much fun will that be. You can't take these sort of things too seriously, but it is always fun to hear what they have to say, this is the only place that I trust to not be con artists. I believe that there are people who have a sixth sense if you will, I do not believe it is the "Devils" work, not one person that I have ever met that has this ability has used it for evil, they always use it to help others.

So we finished our day and boy were we tired, and my feet were killing me next time I wear sneakers not sandals, but even with the sore feet I felt good, it got me to stop thinking about all that is going on and just enjoy the day. Then on Sunday I relaxed, I watched movies and stayed inside all day. I need at least one day a week where I do nothing, it makes me sane again for the week. I wish I could say that this weekend I didn't wake up with anxiety but I can't even though I had a good weekend and I tried to get my mind off of stuff I still didn't sleep much and I still have that knot in my stomach. One day at a time right? Just BREATHE!!! (haha easier said then done).